Advice on a really messy breakup! What the f*** can I do?

alrigheighty. a few weeks ago i found out that i was in love with (or at least madly attracted to) the most amazing girl who happened to be a good friend of mine for about two years. she was what i thought about all the time. when i woke up, during the day and when i went to sleep; she was always there in the back of my mind. not being with her sucked beyond anything imaginable, almost to the point i would feel sick not being with her. unfortunately, this girl was and is the best friend of my now ex.

for about a week i cried to myself not wanting to end it with my girlfriend, but definitely not wanting to continue a lie as she was very much in love with me, but i was not with her. i couldn't disrespect her like that or be completely unfair with her. so finally we had a talk and we ended our relationship with many, many spilt tears.

about a week later i hadn't heard anything from my girlfriend herself, only stories that she hated me and wanted to move far away. now i know i wasn't in love with her, but i still cared (and continue to do so) about her. i want her to be happy and it truly breaks my heart that she isn't. so i went to talk to her to find out were we stood and hopefully patch things up, or at least put things on the right path.

worst talk of my life.

the way it ended was my ex, who before we started dating was my best friend since middle school, no longer wants anything to do with me. even at group parties she said she probably couldn't handle me being there. she has decided that "if she doesn't remember the good times she won't remember the bad".

so now i lost my girlfriend/best friend, a wedge has been driven between all of our friends, and the girl who i was (still kinda am) obsessed with was put in a very awkward position and is leaving in september to europe so i'll probably never see her again.

what the f*** should i do?

try this

http://i-want-my-girlfriend-back.blogspot.com

hope this helps