Well, I think she's not to blame cuz 5 years relationship is really long time and you can't expect her to heal from this long relation that quickly do you? really if you love her you must understand her frustration even if she is the one who broke up it's still very hard to forget and move on so I don't know how can I advise you but I think its perfectly normal that she is confused and may turn you down, if you really think you do love her so much then you will wait for her and not give up and you try to make her love you but if you think it's just waste of time and that your not that serious about her then just leave thing the way they are now. hope I helped