Major Advice needed people!?

Hello..there was this lad i got really close to through the internet about this time last year.I just turned 17 at the time and he just turned 18.We first started talking via msn and we really liked each other and then after about a week i gave him my number,even though i never ever gave out my number before on the computer,but i liked him so much i decided that this one time it would be ok.We lived about two hours away from each other.He wasnt even goodlooking, he wasnt horrific looking also but like he was no Brad Pitt. But his personality was great. After about a week of texting,we were chatting on the phone for about 3 hours at a time.Well anyway we fell in love.I could'nt believe that i could feel this strongly about someone i never met before.. I even said it on the phone to him that it was so wierd that we were really close and we never met.He said he felt the same too. Anyway we had so many long conversations about everything and anything.We got really close and i really thought that we might be soulmates even he said it too. After about two months of talking he started not talking to me on msn and didnt reply to my texts. Then two months later he told me via msn that the reason he ignored me for the two months was because he was falling madly in love with me and that it freaked him out he just had to stop talking to me.I remember him saying"I wanted to see how long i could have gone without ya".I wasnt happy with this because it didnt make any sence to me at all.He also said one of the reasons he stopped talking to me was because he didnt think that we were ever gonna meet up and that frustrated him. But I had every intention of meeting up with him it was just that i had school and i'm living with my parents and he had college and was living away from home with students.So he told me he was in love with me, and he wanted to know did i feel the same, and i never said no and i never said yes too because i didnt want to sound like a fool if i did said yes incase he was playing games with me, and that he was lying that he loved me. I really did love him though. I love his voice and the way he said things, his sense of humour and when he was being all nice to me. But after his confession we didnt talk for about 6 months, i ignored his text and his MSN conversation because i was kinda confused about the whole thing and also i was thinking to myself how could you ignore someone for so long if you loved them? It just didnt make any sense the way he did that.But yesterday he talked to me on msn and i decided to talk back to him to see what he has been getting upto and he said he as a girlfriend now. I played it as i was really happy for him and it didnt bother me that he had a girlfriend.But obviously it did because im still mad about him and its been a year on. Anyway he appeared offline after only a few words to each other. But i want to know why i fell and still am in love with someone i never met..I went on to his bebo and i seen his girlfriend and she is pretty enough,he looked happy well he seemed happy anyway.Some of the reasons i can think of is that,I've never been in a relationship in my whole life, Also he gave me loads of compliments.I want to forget about him completley because it is not healthy to feel like this about somebody that i have never met. I still Have his msn addy and whenever i log on which is regurally by the way. I always die for him to log on and talk to me. It's like i log on so in the hope that he will talk to me.The only reason i ever go on msn really is to see if he is online.It sounds completly patetic when im reading all this now, but i cant help how i feel. I told my sister months back and she seen pictures of him and his bebo and she always said"he's a fool, and you are 10 times better looking than him". Even after hearing all that i still do love him.I've been feeling this strongly about this lad for exactly a year now. I cant believe in a way i wasted a whole year with him in my head.Even if down the line a few months from now or even a year from now, if he contacts me, which i really doubt he will since he has a girlfriend, I doubt i could ever trust him again.The whole thing wouldnt be like what it was in the begining.How do i get over this because it's a serious problem at this stage and also is this problem stupid?I Just read it over and i sound so saaadd!But the main thing is that i'm going into my final year of school and i'm gonna need to concentrate so much on my books.Because i wasted all last year with him in my head.I want to go to college so bad see.And also next time i do have a chance to speak to him,Should i tell him how i really feel for him, that those months way back when i didnt say how i felt was because i was to hurt to say anything.That I am soooo in love with him.How do i say all this..Please help GuysI need some advice please...Thanks a million

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