I love food too much, it's ruining my life. Please listen/help?

azta · #1 (**permalink**) 05-07-2010, 04:43 PM

Food is a huge part of my life and my happiness. Everyday I wake up excited about what I'm going to eat that day. I eat massive amounts of food everyday. How I manage to not be morbidly obese is a freak in' miracle (although I am overweight). I think about food all the time. I fantasize about food. Food is comforting, it seems to fill some kind of void in me, and is more often than not the most exciting and pleasurable part of my day. I eat until it hurts. Then I wait a half hour and eat some more. I have eaten until I threw up. About fifteen minutes later I ate more. The time I do not spend fantasizing about food, I spend fantasizing about being thin. I used to be thin and athletic, I had a great body. It was a f***king amazing feeling. But I ate it away. My boyfriend and I met when I was overweight, but since we've met I've put on an additional 15lbs, and I know he now finds me unattractive. He's a very, very good looking guy, and I worry that he's going to leave me for a more attractive girl (the kind he deserves). He is the absolute best thing that has ever happened to me and I cannot let that happen. But the thought of dieting puts me into a panic. The same kind of panic that the thought of quiting smoking put me into before I did (quit smoking). Except the panic is twenty times worse. I'm far more addicted to food than I ever was to smoking, and quiting smoking was one of the toughest things I've ever done. I need to quit overeating. I feel terrible, physically and mentally. I just don't think I can do it. What will I have to look forward to, to be excited about? What will fill the void?

Julius C · #2 (**permalink**) 05-10-2010, 04:43 PM

I am not reading that, Soooo bases on the question just eat healthier and start dieting like the million of others. And if it's really bad go to a food rehab. And yes there is a food rehab

cece · #3 (**permalink**) 05-11-2010, 04:43 PM

You just need some motivation if you believe he deserves a more "attractive girl" , whatever your definition of that may be, then you should do everything you can to be the girl you know he deserves. You quit smoking and that's a huge thing. You've proved that you are in control, so prove that you are in control of food and not the other way around. You have the power to choose, not food.

swampdonkeyz · #4 (**permalink**) 05-12-2010, 04:43 PM

Jeez you NEED therapy or rehab, I usually love food until I eat so much of it I feel like throwing up(only when I haven't ate all day), but you're just crazy.

IM A ★ · #5 (**permalink**) 05-14-2010, 04:43 PM

This is a great resource for panic and anxiety related issues, and I hope it helps

bigmommainky · #6 (**permalink**) 05-15-2010, 04:43 PM

Maybe your addiction to food has replaced your addiction to smoking.Eating numbs the feeling of emotional pain that you want to suppress.You may be one of the "emotional eaters" who eat rather than address your problems and issues.If you resolve or deal with your inner problems,there 's a great chance that you will control your eating and panic attacks.Please see if these sites can help you in any way.Many people are going through the same problems and have gotten better.Have faith.