Hey love- I know exactly what you are feeling because I have felt it so much before. Most people are going to say "you always want what you cant have" or "you never know what you have until its gone", and yes that is part of is, but it is much deeper than that
you have to conflicting sides, the one that wants to be single and the one that cannot imagine being without him. When you are with him, you want to be single probably because you are bored and want some time to be "free". But then when you are away from him you probably feel vulnerable. IDK how long you have been together, but it is HARD to stop being with someone that you have had in your life for so long. Even if you know its right to move on, it takes a lot of strength to adjust to a new lifestyle. You also probably have a fear of him being with someone else.. that keeps a lot of people in relationships. Here is my advice to you
move on. IDK how old you are, but you deserve to be with someone that you have NO DOUBT about.... be strong- its gonna take time and it wont be easy, but it will get EASIER. The thing is, if its meant to be, it will be, but you need to give yourself some serious time to figure out what YOU want... and in serious time i mean at least 3-6 months away from him. If he dates other girls, its okay... because like i said if its meant to be it will be. Spend this time to better yourself, and figure out what you want, need, like to do and deserve. after this time you will have a clearer mind to make the best choice for you.
Good luck honey!
(also this song is a great one for your situation. ID if u like country (i dint at all) but i love this one song, its an exception Lil- Starts With Goodbye Carrie Underwood
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