Interesting question here, and I'd be really grateful for is ideas about HOW to do what I'm asking about.I'm a fairly odd combination: to the world in general I'm a 35 year old, manly, assertive, sporty guy. Nothing wrong with that. I like it and it's not a mask.However, it's only part of the story. Heaven knows where it comes from, but a large part of my emotions and identity are female (for as long as I can remember). If I was going to be honest, I would say that I'm half transgendered: emotionally, romantically and sexually. To illustrate, the songs I identify with emotionally are by the likes of'Banarama'(when I was a kid in the eighties) and the likes of Madonna or Britney now. Sadly, I look more like Clarke Kent than Buffy! I enjoy crossdressing as a private thing, but what I need are ways of expressing my female side in the real world: ways and places. As a boy from a working class town, I missed the female socialisation I needed. I need a big sister!